Conceptual Process – Anxiety I
I managed to finish my acid heart reflex, which is the first part of my anxiety series. You can read more about that, if you so wish HERE. So a short blog today in a cathartic burst to debut it.
This is good because the anxiety continues to be bothersome. I still don’t think that I am cut out to have anything to do with financial services if I am honest. It’s annoying, it’s slow, its needlessly administrative, everyone’s usually in some sort of bad mood over something. I am so done with it after 20 years. Maybe its just the lingering burn out is triggering falling back into old patterns.
But because I’m good at what I do and I need the money, here I am, still.
One day I’ll get out, until that day most mornings will start with this kind of feeling no matter how low the stakes.
I get told, you’d be like this in any role. I’m not so sure, I’ve not been anxious once whilst building and planning and thinking about the future. I just think that the financial services industry is so in opposition to who I am it’s easy to feel the acid burn.
More incentive to carry on building to get to anywhere other than here.
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